running away



Isn't my mom beautiful!!!



friday i will run away again,

i will run to the coast and hill country,

i hope it will lift my spirits,

lately days have been rough, super duper rough,

i really don't even wanna be around,

the pain is too heavy,

how will i survive without her,

she was my go to girl,

my everyday talk,

my lifter upper,

i miss her so much,

i have to run,

my heart is too heavy to stay,

i need a change of scenery,

my dear husband will help me escape the misery,

if only for a moment i could feel good,

i sure hope the bluebonnets are there,

i cannot wait to feel the sand in my toes,

and smell the ocean air,

surely that will snap me out of this horrible dark stretch of days.

Look whats blooming

Wisteria

 Snowball

 Yellow Lady Banks Rose

 Cross Vine

 Verbena

 Bridal Wreath

Mom's favorite Clematis

Spring Break Campout at Lake Ray Roberts

 Roasting Marshmellows

 Kylee jumping waves (windy day at lake)

 Luke jumping his wave!!

 Sand Play

 Fishing

 Lake is low, loved natures art!

 Peace in the sand, who doesnt like to bury themselves in sand?

 Bella joined in on the fun.

 It got so hot (almost 90) so we got out the swimsuits. ; )

 Luke buried everything and said he was burying treasure.  He made a treasure map.  Kylee was a Pirate and tried to steal his treasure.  We asked Luke "What does a pirate do?" his answer was "Not brush his teeth"

Adorable

 Hiking

 Biking

 April Playing Ball with Luke

 Uncle Roby teaching how to climb trees

 by the end of each day exhaustion set in!

We really loved Ray Roberts Lake, Isle de bois Unit.  It started out at 30 degrees the first day of camp(Monday) and by the last day (Friday) it was a whopping 85+.

Saw my friend and went for a hug

Today I saw one of my dear friends, while I was on my way to dad's house.  I couldn't resist so I turned around and pulled in the parking lot, jumped out, and scurried over for a great big comfort hug.  I was so glad I did because then she asked me to walk with her and we got to visit and catch up on life.  I needed this wonderful surprise today.  Thank you, Joyismygoal!!!

Daffodil Smile and turning 20

A few days ago my Baby Girl turned the big 20!

 I don't have a teenager anymore :( ....is that good or bad?

 We went to the Japanese Palace to celebrate!!

 This morning I found a smile!

Spring is not to far away when my daffodils say Hello!!!

Grief

With the good weather lately,
I have been out walking,
which in turn makes me start thinking,
which then makes me start missing my mom,
which then makes me start crying,
it has been three weeks but it feels like forever,
how will I do this,
going through my mind is all the things I would like to share with her,
I talk to her and then I sound like a looney,
so then I just talk in my mind,
my mind races a lot,
I am suffering,
I bounce from pretend happy
to really sad,
to numb,
to angry,
I don't want to become bitter
but I feel that I already am,
why did she have to die so young,
we have been the bestest of friends for such a long time,
I miss you mom....

I am thankful for the time we had

and

I am so thankful for what you taught me

I love you

always and forever!

I hate the word cancer

Cancer is evil. 
 It is a devious beast. 
We must find a cure. 
I wish I was smarter. 
I pray that someone finds a way to kill this horrible life stealing disease.