Grief

With the good weather lately,
I have been out walking,
which in turn makes me start thinking,
which then makes me start missing my mom,
which then makes me start crying,
it has been three weeks but it feels like forever,
how will I do this,
going through my mind is all the things I would like to share with her,
I talk to her and then I sound like a looney,
so then I just talk in my mind,
my mind races a lot,
I am suffering,
I bounce from pretend happy
to really sad,
to numb,
to angry,
I don't want to become bitter
but I feel that I already am,
why did she have to die so young,
we have been the bestest of friends for such a long time,
I miss you mom....

I am thankful for the time we had

and

I am so thankful for what you taught me

I love you

always and forever!